So, I have been in such a Creative Depression lately. I feel like everything I’ve made is crap. Which has caused me to be in a slump and question everything. Am I good? Am I wasting my time? Should I consider doing something else?
It got so bad to where I was scared to touch my sewing machine and any project I started on my knitting needles just doesn’t get completed. Which causes the Creative Depression to get worse.
Also, I have been all over the place (emotionally – but that’s nothing new).
I decided to use this New Moon to get my ish together. Also, I am reading two books right now, The Universe Has Your Back by Gabrielle Bernstein, and The Life Changing Magic of Not Giving a F*ck by Sarah Knight. Both happen to fall under the* “Self-Help/Care/Improvement/Whatever the hell You Want to Call It” category which was unintentional on my part but I guess that’s the universe’s way of dropping hints.
And as always, I have my arsenal of stones. I’m still wearing the rose quartz daily and I’ve been keeping my Zebra Stone nearby.
The Zebra Stone can show us our own true natures and help us see past illusion. It is a grounding stone which connects to mother earth, a great boon to doing spiritual and energy work. Zebra Stone is also very effective at protecting one’s aura (Source).
Also, I made some New Moon Water. I’ve been doing this ever since I went to the New Moon Meditation Circle a couple of months ago. Making your own is very easy:
Get a jar or bottle you can use every month, fill it with purified water(I usually boil mine. The purer, the better!), get a stone (this is optional) and focus on your intentions for the next month, and place it in the water. For the next month, sip on your water in the morning with your intentions in mind. Be sure to finish your water before the next new moon.
Oh, yeah! I’m also going to make an effort to journal more. I need to get better at writing down my thoughts. I have too many running around in my head all day which causes me to be all over the place. Part of this is due to my Gemini nature. I recently did my Natal Chart and that was an eye opener. More on that in another post. There I go rambling again. Back to journaling.
I am going to start writing more. Whether it’s pen to paper. Or keyboard to blog. I could beat myself up about it but I’m not. As my friend told me, “Grace Over Guilt.”
One more thing: I need to talk about how I was tested yesterday while out for a run. So I wanted to go for a run before it started to rain but unfortunately it started mid-run. So as I was making my way back home, I got caught by the train. I had no choice but to stand there, waiting for the train to pass, as the cars waiting continued to increase and were giving me “Sucks to be you!” looks. Instead of getting mad and have it ruin my day I just laughed it off, got home, showered, changed, and went to record a podcast with my girl Jernell. I fought the rain and the rain won.