During yoga training this weekend we learned about feeding the fire within but also fanning it at the same time. We did a practice that had me dripping in sweat and slipping on my mat (Surprise! You don?t need to attend a yoga class with heaters to to feel the heat. But if that?s your thing, power to ya!).
This month has not been a peaceful transition into the new year/decade and it is effecting me tremendously. I always look forward to yoga weekends because I come out feeling energized. This weekend was extra emotional for me. I kept hearing things from our teacher that were really sticking to me and the main one was about letting things go (mentally and physically). Throughout the weekend I kept asking myself if I was letting things go, placing the blame on others, making excuses, justifying?
I felt like I was on the verge of tears the whole time. By the end of Saturday?s class, I was spent.
I have lit all the matches and I am burnt out.
This is not the ideal card to pick but here I am. It is time to let things go, walk away.
This is not a card I want to see frequently because then it means I am consciously choosing the hard way.
Here are a few things I plan to do to balance the fire:
Journal – My head needs space. I will spend 5-10 minutes a day doing a complete brain dump.
Meditation – I don?t meditate for the longest. 5-10 minutes is my limit (for now). But I also need to let go of thinking meditation is suppose to look/feel the way I want it to.
Running – Along with my goal of blogging everyday I also made a goal of doing at least 1 mile a day. Running has always been the best exercise for me to let things go. I?ve lost count on how many times I?ve cried during a run.
Yoga– Chest/heart, hip, and full-body? openers are the main focus for this week (Bow, locust, Warrior 2, Raised Side Angle)
By the way, at the end of the of another yoga weekend I am feeling refreshed, hopeful, revitalized.