My Journey with Alternative Healing
Lately I have been having a lot of internal conversations with myself questioning my life and choices. I ask myself if I made the right decision in my career path or if I should just give up and do something else? In the past six months, I have cried, questioned, compared, wondered where I went wrong, which has led me to literally crying out “What am I here for?” Before I go further, I want to preface by saying none of these questions include my sons and being a mom. They gave me purpose and I’m thankful for it. I’ve discussed with my feelings ad naseum with my therapist (reminder: yoga is NOT a replacement for therapy) and during one of our latest sessions she told me my depression has gone beyond just talking about it and I needed to dive deeper.
Growing up, I never experimented with using drugs. I always joke and say “I took D.A.R.E Day very seriously.” Funny how certain substances were deemed “bad” just because the government couldn’t control it. Meaning, they weren’t making money. When I got back into lifting weights and wanting to find a way to help ease the sore muscles. CBD had been popular for a couple of years but still unsure what it was, I stayed away. But I was curious. My curiousity piqued even more as I spoke with my friend one day as she talked about a recent episode of SNL she had just watched, she casually mentioned CBD. From there, I asked here some questions about what she used, about she had mentioned using CBD. From there she gave me a sample of some drops she used and told me the dosage to take and when. I have another friend, who is also a healer that fully supports the use of THC and Psilocybin. She gave me a edible gummy she made herself and advice I don’t take it all at once. She also gave me a small microcode to try. Previously everything I know about microdosing came from the movies and people tripping out and doing really stupid things. My friend told me microdosing helps enhance/improve whatever you are doing. She even suggested I take it before a workout.
It’s interesting, once you start talking to people about seeking alternative healing, it opens the floodgates. So many of us are getting away from the traditional method of getting a pill subscribed. I will always say, “If you need it, take it” so no judgment on my part. in fact, I have been on medication in the past and it has been helpful but personally, it wasn’t best for me in the long run. I have experimented with microdosing and it has worked best for me. It helps me stay focus and release any blockages i’ve had.
For most of June, my sons were gone and my goal was to get back to Self. This was going to include going on hikes, being creative and experiencing how life would look being single. It didn’t go according to plan, I was just too sad and unmotivated to do anything.
When my therapist mentioned I needed to look beyond just talking about my feelings, I mentioned to her I was giving some mushrooms for my birthday (aren’t my friends great?) and I have been taken a capsule daily and before my workout. The effects of the pill kicks in right when i’m about to be finished with my workout and head into my meditation. I’ve been exploring meditations that have do with Quantum Jumping and living in the 5D. This may all sound trippy. It is, but I believe in doing what you need to do to be your best self without harm to others.
To some, yoga is trippy.
